I've been coming to certain realizations but when I get here to write them down, I forget what they were.  I hate titles.  I don't want to say that I have Adult ADD, but at times I can't help but think it.  Dumb Amanda got it in my head about what she wrote before she left to Florida.  I was so happy not thinking about what she yearns for.  Now I realize that I'm missing those things too.  My thoughts fell on them periodically, and even then, it was only in passing.  Now, after she made it visual for me, all I see is the words she used:  Kissing, Hugging, Cuddling. (Blah,Blah, Blah)
Damn verbs!
Sorry Andy, I just had to use them.  The situation required it.

Well, here I am as an early alckie.  I was going through some of my old pictures and found these.  Hope u like.  I'll try to find others.  Brings a laugh and a groan to me.  "I was never that young".
Post Script : The beer can was empty at point of make-believe consumption.  Thank you, the management.

Aren't I a cute kid? I wonder what happened? 

Mmm, good beer 

What does it mean that your contacts move too much?  Well, This weekend was there.  No fun or anything like that.  My eyes were constantly irritating.  Found out today that the right contact lens moves too much.  The Optometrist put my lenses in a flash and then messed with my eye.  She told me to blink my eye and read the "magic letter box with light"(Technical term by the way) and I could.  She told me to keep blinking until I couldn't see the letters anymore.  She checked my eyes and told me I was cured.  Anyway!  At least she was cute and young, to boot.  Anyway, she has to reorder the right lens.  She gave me a jeans metaphor.  I wanted to laugh but like I said before, she was cute and I was enthralled.  Well, some more waiting.

Aghh, friends!  What can I say about them that we all don't yet know?  Last night was a blast.  Aside from the gifts, I got to spend time with friends.  Unexpected it all was.  There will be cake today.  We were too full to eat last night.  Anyway...Aghh, friends!  You just gotta love the camaraderie of the whole concept.  Again - Aghhhh, friends!
Last night, when I was driving Matt home, we drove by the haunted house in the woods by Matt's place.  I shouldn't have made a comment because on the way back by the woods, I was freaked out.  I didn't want to look into my rear view mirror.  I didn't want to blink because in the movies, sh*t happens when you blink.  For example, zombies step in front of your car or something appears in your passenger side, and even apparitions.  Any of that and I'd have a melt down.  Actually, I'd scream like a girl. Anyway, aghhhh, friends!
My contacts are working out fine except that my right one is blurry.  Other than that, it's ALL GOOD!  I'm just too blind for contacts.   I think that's as far the machine goes.  Any higher and the damn thing would be reading the future.  (hehehe = That one's good!  I'll have to remember it.)

Well, today was fun.  Today's my birthday.  THat's not the fun part.  I got a call from the Optometrist saying my temp contacts are in.  I wore them home but had to take them off because my eyes were itchie.  Anyway, that's all I wanted to say.

Well, I've been accepted into the MLA program.  May not be a big surprise for some of you, but I wasn't all that sure.  Anyway, it seems I'll be around for a while longer.  This sentiment will last until August 15, 2004.  I should know by then if I get the job in England.  It still sounds funny to say.  I'm actually capable of getting a job in England.  I told someone that a high school student will probably be able to do the assigned work the position is asking for, but ENGLAND!!
 
This weekend ROCKED in its own right.  Several people were missing from the mix, but enjoyment was had.  Friday, there was a twofur at the movies.  I, Robot & Anchorman were good movies.  Supposedly, there was some dry humor, shall we say, in Anchorman.  Andy and Diana liked it but kind of reserved about it.  I just thought it was great the way they made fun of the decade I was born in.  Let's not say that too loud.  Anyway, on Saturday night, Mary, Candelario, Andy & I watched King Arthur.  I've already seen, but the company this time around made up for the loneliness of the first time.  Joy was had.  Laughter was had.  But there was an emptiness the size of two or three people.  Hint-Hint!

Well, I went to my MLA program interview. Supposedly, my recommendation letter spoke highly of me and the directors husband, whom I've taken classes from, also spoke highly of me. Everything I was supposed to turn in is in and all that is left is for my application to be reviewed by the committee. Even there I have professors that know me. I'm kind of scared, though, because my grades weren't that great. I may have a Bachelors, but grades matter.

I applied to an Archaeology trainee position in England. I'm actually hoping to get the job. Imagine the experience. The location is out of the way, actaully, the only way to get to the site is to take four-wheelers. I'll get to drive four-wheelers! I know my history, but when it comes to Middle Ages, I wish I had paid more attention in "Europe in the Middle Ages" class. I hope my application doesn't make me sound too idiotic. You know me, if I get the chance to reveal my stupidity, I'll do it in a flash. Wish me luck.

All I need now is a temporary job to get me through the summer, but alas, I'm lazy and would rather sleep in than wake up early to go to work. Eeek! Jobs are for the dedicated and not for me.

Well, it seems that I'll be home alone for two weeks. Mom is in San Antonio with my "loving" sibling who is better known as Satan. Anyway, the drive back [ALONE] was awesome. Talk about freedom! I hit about 85mph and didn't have to worry about my mother yelling at me to slow down, but any faster and my car would explode anyway. Anyway, I got here and finally realized the down side of being home alone; I have to do things for my self. Ain't that some sh*t! I kinda damned myself. It's not that I don't know how to do things [like wash and pick up after myself], it's just that I'm too lazy to do it. I saw my room this morning and didn't want to bother, but someone has to do it. Need a job? Contact me! Now hiring!

I just watched "King Arthur". GREAT movie! One thing struck me though. I think Kiera Knightely(Guenevere) looks a little like our very own Em-J. Judges, may I have a ruling? I think its either the blue paint or the way Guenevere can shoot an arrow. Anyway, I had chills up my spine, but alas, I cannot accept the authenticity of this version until further research is done by yours truly. When I should get to it, I know not when.

If the way I'm writing now sounds a little poetic, well, I've been transfering my poems from handwritten to computer. Alas, thou art, thine, thee have now been etched into my everyday usage. Enough of that, thy must bid thee fair thee well. HAHAHA.

Do you want to hear something strange? Well, you know how I'm reading Nitetzsche, well, he can piss me off with a fiery passion. I don't know. At times it seems to want to make sense, but then he says something that confuses the sh*t out of me.

OK! Let's try this again.
So far (up to page 69) pregnancy is a womans place. She should strive to give birth to the overman(another word for Superman). Anyway, mans friends should also be his enemies and there should be secrets among you. Your thoughts should be for the future and the overman, and not "love thy neighbor". He says that religion will lead to annihilation and that God is created by those whom want to control society (In a way).

Oh, FYI, I think he has some women issues. More soon!

Well, I've been reading Nietzsche and I seem to be getting the wrong idea, according to Matt. Anyway, it's hard to understand when you are walking on a tredmill. Note: Don't read Nietzsche when you are working out. It just makes the mind hurt that much more. I've applied to the MLA program. All I need is a transcript from HCCS, a recommendation letter from Dr. ******* and an interview with the program director. I can't remember, but I think I've already said this before. Well, here it is again.

I've realized a couple of things when I was reading and walking today. Something struck home like nothing else has before. Do you know that it is hard to change? Don't get me wrong, I've always known that but I always just pish-poshed it away. Just remember, Girls Are Nothing But Trouble!!!!!!!!