haven't been feeling myself lately. funny thing is, i haven't been feeling anyone. i'm here in the world, afraid to be me at this moment. would rather be someone else or somewhere else. it's like my soul hurts.

i'm starting to figure out that i have nothing interesting to say anymore. hell, i can't even find interesting things to write. i'm sitting here, on my day off, wondering, what do i write? it's either that, or that i have a boring life.

i'm supposed to watch "Cars" later today. not really sure if i'm going. i think i'll keep working on this thesis and then go to an early afternoon movie.

does anyone really read this anyway?!?!

so, i think they're coming to pick up the car today. i should explain: the eclipse, not the xterra. anyway, matt, wasn't in a drivable condition. checked it out earlier and it would have taken way too much work to get it to a drivable shape. and even then, it would not have been in the best of conditions.

haven't finished my thesis. i'll get on it eventually.

people think i'm a scared-e-cat. imagine that.

anyway, nothing interesting happening to me right now. dealing (with people, not drugs).

laters.