i've been up since about 730am. drove mom to san antonio last night. we left houston about 830pm or so. i had already mentioned this to her, but mothers seem to disregard what their children tell them, but i was just dropping her off. i was coming back to houston afterward. so, we arrived at my sisters home about midnight and by 1230am i was on my way back, after a thirty minute hastle-fest with my mother about rest and stuff. i really didn't want to stick around their place. i just wanted to hurry home.

i started getting sleepy and the cokes i had weren't working. i wanted to talk to some one but everyone was asleep at two in the morning, so i had to settle for the next best thing when driving on a freeway, going about 80 mph: i had to jam out to System of a Down. i had tried frank sinatra but he made me sleepy and even made me a little more depressed. that's pretty much it. i got home around 400am and i'm oddly awake having gotten only three and a half hours of sleep. then again, i do have a headache.

work is going well, i've been training people and i'm not even a trainer. i hope i'm doing a good job. that place works your nerves sometimes. but hey, it's the easiest job possible. like someone said before, "all you have to do is sit there and push buttons, what's so difficult in that?" i was hoping for my birthday off. actually, i was hoping for my birthday weekend off so i could spend sometime with V, but too many people seem to want Friday the 21st. so, i'll settle for getting the sunday (23rd) off instead. that way, i'll have saturday, sunday and monday off.

had to go in a totally different direction when it comes to the thesis paper. i got rid of all the books i had and printed out three large primary source books from MOA. for now, all i'm doing is putting notes on important things and then i'll go from there. I'M SUCH A LOSER!!! i can't even get this done. oh well, my drive for life is gone. all i want to do now is survive. good luck...