ah! laughter!
ah! smiley's!
ah! smirks!

where have all these things gone? there are no more in my world. they have disappeared into the haze of winter and summer. actually, just winter. cold breeze and warmth. how is it that we've survived so long on such limited stuffs? dreams tell me nothing of the self only that the self isn't good enough.

my life is so freaking mundane! i live no longer for life but my materialistic side. i live to survive, not to live. what kind of life is that when...ah HELL!!!

i am useless and unecessary. i am pointless and empty.

if my life was a song it would be a country song or the line in the song that climaxes the whole sadness.