Well, well, well. How's everyone? Good? Good!
It's the beginning of a new week and I'm still me. How 'bout ya'll? Are you still you? Anyway, This weekend was one of those interesting things. I was going through some of the blogspots out there and I came across some interesting ones. For instance, I came across one that was by this woman who, at a party, drew up a memo for her friend to give to women so as to cut out the small talk. I also came across another that was purely political. I wish I was more like that. I wish I actually cared about things. Then again, everyone is a backseat politician and nothing is scarier than a "Sunday-Night Politician". Did I get that saying right? Ohhhh, who cares!!!!!!

Soleil spent the weekend with us again. She has her two bottom front teeth. Also, she growls! She goes GRRRRR, like the Hulk. Her family refers to her as the Hulk everytime she does that. That's about it for my stories.

DLC + David tried to go to Astroworld today. Actually, we tried to go to New Braunfels but that didn't pan out. We tried Astroworld but it started raining, after I had already bought my ticket online. Damn rain! It tricked me into buying that ticket. Anyway, we ended up going to the movies. We watched The Exorcist - The Beginning. I think the movie tried too hard to out do the original. I don't think that anything can out do the original. But, the company was nice. It had been a while, I think, since last DLC had a time out together.

I've been having a lot of people ask me why I'm back at school. They make it sound like I should have gone somewhere else for a Masters. Maybe they're right. All I need is my GRE and then we'll talk about leaving. For now, I'm thinking......Loan Deferrment!!!!!! hehehe.

Well, well, well.
I just came out of my last class today. Faces of Totalitarianism is an interesting class but the professor actually expects me to work. What's up with that?! Anyway, my first day was good. Hots as hell, but at least I got to see friends. Arthurian Legends seems like it'll be cool. The professor for that class has nothing but negative remarks to say about the lattest movie. Hey, don't knock it! But I didn't tell'em that. Anyway, hope everyones day went the same. Now I'm at work and I should look like I'm doing something productive. hehehe...productive...hehehe

It's the first day of classes for HISD. I had to drive mom to work today. It was pretty cool (as in weather wise) this morning. I had this feeling like I used to get when I used to get ready to go to Middle School or something eerie like that. It was strange. I hadn't felt that way in a couple of years. I thought it was cool (feeling wise). Anyway, one more week. I have to change one of my classes because I don't feel that Philosophy is one of my stronger subjects. I'm taking a history class. Imagine that, I fear failing out of the Masters program. My stomach actually started churnning today. Well, wish me luck and I'll wish you luck.

"Once more into the breech, dear friends, once more.
Or cover the walls with our English dead.
In peace, nothing so becomes a man as modesty and humility,
But when the blast of war blows in our ears,
Summon up the tiger.
Disguise fair nature with rage,
and lend the eye a terrible aspect."
Shakespeare, Henry V
(Don't ask me for ACT or SCENE, please! I'm not even sure of it IS Henry V! It may be Henry IV...Dooooe!!!)

Well, today was kind of sh*tty. Anyway, I was supposed to workout with a professor at 9am but I was late. He didn't want to go to Jerabeck alone. I guess he wanted someone to talk to while he was working out. My fault for being late. No excuse. Anyway, I think he hates me now. I got to Jerabeck at about 10:30 and he was walking out. I apologized, but I think he was disappointed in me. He's cool and I don't want him to think that he can't count on me. And just yesterday we talked about priorities. I think he really hates me. I'm scared that he'll fail me now. Well, have a good weekend. I'll be at home, counting the hours till classes start and I'm kicked out of his class. Adieu et au revoir.

I finished it!
Well, I didn't know how crazy Nietschez was. He was a loner but wanted a social life. He suffered a lot towards the end of his life. Aside from headaches, he also couldn't see. When doctors told him not to over stress his eyes, he continued writing. That's how he finished his later works. He speaks about recurrence of events. He also speaks about a balance of things. He has two friends, both animals (a serpent and an eagle). It's strange, but no matter how gone he was there's something to say about his works. At least the won I read, it was interesting.
I liked it.
"Thus Spoke Zarathustra"
Frederich Nietschez

I'm almost done reading Nietzsche and so far I've gathered that all man must do is have faith in what he beleives. Don't follow, but lead. As long as you beleive in something, that's all that matters. It's up to the individual to beleive what he believes. No one should tell him that one way is better than another. He should be able to distinguish between what is right or wrong. Even then, Right & Wrong are words created by men who wanted to keep power over the masses. Religion was created for the same thing; for the few to rule the many. I guess it's a Humanistic point-of-view. It's all about the man. Man and woman, together, are creators. It sounded harsh what I had said about him all lose weeks ago, but I get it now, I think.

When it comes to God being dead, well, what can be said about that. According to Nietzsche, God was killed by "The Ugliest Man" (Pity, I think.). But getting back to part 4, he brings together a rabble of men who, I beleive, are different aspects of life. I have to figure that out before I can go on. Anyway, our true end is not in finding God but in procreating the perfect man (the overman or the superman). It's all about our children. Our future doesn't end with Death or the afterlife. We should strive to think beyond the "kingdom of God". All the religions preach that when we die, we go to heaven, but what should be addressed is that when we die, the world goes on and our children will have to "rule the world". We should teach our children to be masters of their destinies and not slaves to their fates.

I'm still not sure or finished. Wish me luck.

Yes, yes. I know! It's taken me too long to read this book. I'm sorry. I'll try to do better next round.

I should mention that as I was finishing up my last blog, Em-J showed up. She helped with Soleil. Until she started squirming around. Soleil, not Em-J (hahaha). Anyway, Soleil and I left.
I made a comment about consciousness but I lost my train of thought half way through.

I have to tell you about last night. Freaky, especially since what happened, happened in my moms room. Well, we took care of Soleil Friday and Saturday night. It was fun, to a point. Do you know that kids are fun ONLY when they laugh. Their crying gets annoying after a while. Anyway, besides the point. Last night, I was watching The 4400 and my mom called me into her room. I walked over and she pointed to Soleil's swing. Soleil's mom had brought an extra one for us so she wouldn't have to carry one around.
The swing was swinging on it's own. I asked her if clothes that were lieing on top of the swing had shifted and pushed the seat, making the whined-up mechanism work. She said that it just started on its own. Freaky much! Anyway, that's our scarey story of the day.

Guess what I have with me right now? Well, it's worth about $20,000 and it's paper thin and with the St. THomas crest on it. You guessed it! My degree. Do you know that I walked into the Registrars office and asked for the degree and they looked at me like I was stupid. I had to describe to them what the hell I wanted. Finally, I said the diploma paper and one of the girls there figured out that I wasn't stupid, or that atleast for that visit I actually knew what I was doing. It's so difficult at times. I'm starting to think that there is something wrong with me that makes other people beleive me to be a moron. Do I just think I'm semi-normal? Is everything I do just MY reality and no one elses? Now the blame isn't theirs, it's mine. That's cool, I'm blamed for everything else, why not this.

Guess who's here with me at the Library? Soleil. She wants to type here owjn message, so any mistakes are hers. It seems that Em-J isn't here. Soleil wanted to meet Tia Em-J. I guess she had studying to do.

With Soleil on my lap, I have to wonder where conscieousness comes from. That was one of the realizations I came to. Actually, what makes a conscious. I think Soleil is getting bored, so I'm about to go.

-Warning-
Depressing material follows. May not be suitable for all audiences. Individual discretion advised.
You probably don't know, but I have an active imagination. Do you know that I've been on covert ops? You probably don't know, but it's true. I've protected "packages" and infultrated "hot zones". My imagination has taken me to different places except reality. Anyway, just thought you might like to know that my id is working overtime. But do you know that a woman is always involved in my imagination? You probably don't know that either, but again, it's true. So, the id IS working overtime. I wonder if it'll end one day. I think it's the superman complex that I'm still suffering from. I thought that went away after your teenage years! I guess not. Maybe it's that I need some part in my life fullfilled. Either way, it's sad that there's something I need attended. I guess you don't have to be a psychologist to figure this one out. Hell, if I can figure it out, surely the whole world will pity me. hahaha, the tears of a clown, sob-sob-sob...

This weekend was a blast. Friday, Andy and I went to AMC 30 to see The Village and ended up getting a twofur and watching Harold and Kumar go to White Castle. It was great. I suggest you do the same because The Village is scarey. You'll need funnies afterwards.

Saturday was even more exciting. We, (we meaning Andy, Em-J, David and I), watched The Manchurian Candidate. Ahhhh, I'm so fearful of having my name mentioned now. I run away and scream like a girl when I hear my name. Anyway, it's a good movie but it lacked something. Actually, it said a lot. The scenes were filled with conspiracy implications. If you liked Ferenheit 911, you'll enjoy The Manchurian Candidate.

After the movie, we ended up at IHOP and except for the low ceiling, we liked the one off of Westiemer. It was happy and bright. Far removed from HOP's red and dim lighting. I had orderd a Belgium Waffle, eggs and hash browns BUT alas they were having problems. The waitress came up and apologized. Actually, the eggs and hash browns were pretty filling so I didn't think twice about the waffle. After a while, the manager came up and apologized also. Andy, Em-J and David say that I may have inadvertantly got someone fired. I hope not. I really hope not.