I've lost the battle, but the war is still pending. i couldn't say what i really wanted or thought. there was no way to get my point across without all walls and alarms going up.

i don't feel my ideas are wrong, but i'm worried that they might be. i feel the need to share, but no one will listen and how can i force people to listen when i'm unsure myself.

i know i'm right, but what does that mean when the world around me has brainwashed everyone to think that what ever is outside the norm is wrong. to them, i'll burn and they'll have eternal life.

even christ was a rebel. i beleive in his teachings of peace and love, but i don't beleive in singling him out for just one group of people. God exists, no matter if you beleive in him or not. Christ died for our sins, no matter if we beleive it or not. But he also died because of his teachings. I'd rather beleive in what he was (teach, preacher and ruler), rather than what was done to him because of those lessons. I'm sorry, I can't beleive in the symbol he has been fashioned into, but I'd rather learn fromthe lessons he has taguht. If that's blasphemious, if that's wrong, if that sends me to hell, then fine. If it's wrong because the chruch says so, if it's wrong because those that were taught by the church think its blasphemious, than they are no better than those that cruxified christ; those that spoke against him and for barabas.

talk about going to hell.