quasi-scholastic questions.
what does that mean?
i see the face now, every where i am and was.
what does that say about me?
am i truly horrible, terrible and all the other verbs, adjectives or whatever?
i feel i am.
i'm dangerous, delusional and damaged.
dilapidated and derived from a lost destiny.
what i search for is what i gave up so long ago.
such so, that i can't remember exactly the way or reason it happened.
it just did.
a predator that preys on innocence and ponders nothing.
i no longer see through dualistic eyes, but through the instinctual senses that were out dated and devilish at the creation of the social structure.
what am i if not human because to be human one must be humane.
i forgotten what that all means.

Damn Matt! I'm almost through my pack of cigarettes. I've been chain smoking ever since I got on campus today. My lungs are starting to hurt. Actually, they've been hurting since last night. My laptop is almost out of juice. I had to download music outside today. My fault. OOOoor, I can blame Matt. That's it, Matt's fault.