What can I say that I haven't said earlier but had blogger erase. It was beautifully written, only to have it deleted into the state of nihilo (can that word be used with out the "ex"?). It was as if the negation of God became an obsolete question. It was as if I stood in front of the unattainable in corporeal form. The feelings and emotions completed something that was missing, and MY truth was no longer just my truth. The world made sense for a moment and faded back into a mystery. I lost all perspective of the world around me. Nothing existed, nothing remained, all was quiet except for a heart beat. In that heart beat, I existed eternally. Now I know how C.S. Lewis can think that Love, having become a God, becomes a demon. All else losses a little bearance, leaving only that love to worship. But it's not a demon. It brings parity to everything. It's an equalizing effect to emotions, passions and self-awareness. It heightens all into some state of purity where nothing evil can exist. If I am just rambling, I don't care. My fingers want to talk, so I let them. Everything else, you'll have to experience and maybe one day you'll understand why the mind and the heart are constantly confused when it come to each others way of thought.