There's a little place in my mind where things go that people say. They think I've forgotten, but I haven't. How I wish I could exist in oblivion. Even now I'm afraid of God's cruel jokes. I don't mean that oblivion would be a great place, but that forgetfulness would be simpler than having to deal with all the crap in my head.

So, I still haven't found a job(s). Sorry, I've been handling too many applications that its starting to invade my own writing. I've gotten to the point where I'm looking for two part time jobs to make up the one full time job I had. I would like to consider the three years as a real time power trader a "Career", but when no other firm will pay attention to you because of the lack of financial education, it's hard to think of it than more than just a job. It seems that my Masters degree means shit out here in the real world.