Why don't I have a "killer instinct"? What the fuck is a killer instint anyway? I'm at a Toyota dealership with V's hybrid and all I can think about is how much of a dumbass I've been. I'm sitting here blogging from my blackberry, wondering if I ever had that killer instinct that assholes seem to have.

So, how is everyone doing out there in Bloggerworld. As for me, still unemployed and wondering where all the headhunters are. I was told they were out there looking for me. Do I just not put myself where they can find me? Are they looking for that killer instinct that I don't possess?

There are hours where I think, "good ridance to all that stress". Then the next minute, I think about all those stressed out nights with no sleep and realize that I miss them. Come on! Someone let me know if I ever had what it took. I can deal with the truth. I'm just tired of banging my head against the fucking wall thinking that I was this extremely wonderful trader.