what existence?!
to live and not live.
to cry and not cry.
to feel and not feel...

what existence?!
to love and not love.
to be and not be.
to frown and not frown...

sorrowing penetance and existence of nothingness. i flutter to not be when my emotions are befriended by the dark chill of emptiness. when the heart is destroyed by the lack of a glance and the touch of a hand. what does it all mean?

meanings lost in the jungle of the mind. the chaos that envelopes the mind and wringes it out in the desert sun to smoulder in the heat, left to evaporate into waves of heat.

blasphemies cried out on the lips of children as they rush over concrete barriers left behind by a generation of ungreatful children, lacking respect and honor.

what honor?!

this is my life: confusion and destruction, tied with the rope of lies and deceit.
sweet words on their lips, bitter acceptance on my ears. befriend the unconscious mind and tell me...tell me something that sounds good.

that is my existence.