I hate Facebook

Facebook sucks!  That's why I try my best not to access it.  It's filled with people enjoying life.  All I want to do is scream!  All I want to do is...well, that doesn't matter.

I feel like I don't belong out there.  I feel like I want to be out there, but that I don't feel like I belong out there.  So many happy faces, happy occurances, happiness.  All this and feeling the opposite makes me just want to stop and give up.

Now, I can't feel but feel like I'm a pointless connection to a past no longer possible.  A connection to the wrong direction of life.  Do I belong?  Should I belong?

The language changes, the style changes and all I'm left with is a past I no longer recognize.  I'm not a part of the life I want to be a part of but not sure if I fit.  Again, do I fit?  Should I fit?

I'm living a life that I...well, that doesn't matter either.  I just wish I didn't feel so alone, so forgotten.  I wish I could remember who I was.

Facebook reminds me of a life I wish didn't hurt.  This pain doesn't heal.  The pain just reminds me that I'm still alive when all I'd rather be is...that doesn't matter either.