Life is but a dream

It’s interesting.  It’s interesting to be alive right now.  I get to see everything that people do and think that I’m not sure if I even have my own thoughts or ideas.

Am I driven?  Am I capable of something wonderful?  Is it possible to have a secure life?  What am I supposed to do in this world?  Why do I only have questions?

I figured that with the level of education that I have it would be easier for me to traverse my existence.  I falter and stumble.  I slip and fall and there’s nothing I can do but watch.  All I can do is watch and wait for the next fall; the next shoe to drop.

A Dream

I had a dream last night.  Kind of weird.  Anyway, I was leading a group of people through a deserted street trying to find shelter.  It seems that the whole area or whole world had been abandoned or something.

It was dusk; the sun was going down and we really needed to find shelter for the night.  Suddenly, above, in the sky, two groups of planes attacked each other.  There was a brilliant light show as tracer fire streamed across the sky.

We ducked into the first house available and I asked if someone had found the basement stairs, but the house didn’t have a basement.  A man from the group said he had found a house with a basement but that he couldn’t remember where it was across the street (It seems we had been scavenging for stuff down the street the whole day).  Well, it was too late to try to find the house while the air battle was happening, so we hunkered down in place.

Someone of the group started cooking in the kitchen (there was light) but spilled something on the table.  The guy from earlier, the basement guy, walked into the kitchen area and began to clean the table.  I felt like he was intruding on a private conversation.

Muere libre mas que vivir esclavos!!!

To my brothers and sisters in Alabama, “die free rather than live as slaves”.

I’ve been reading the New York Times online and I couldn’t believe what I was reading.  I couldn’t believe it when I was told about this, but it was worse than I thought.  People are hiding in their homes for fear of being arrested.  People are abandoning their homes, homes where their children have grown up in.  What’s sadder is that the law makers who decided that this was a good thing for American forgot about Germany all together.  HB-56 IS A TRAVESTY to America, Americans who have sacrificed themselves for the cause and to the words, “Give me your tired, your poor, your huddled masses yearning to breathe free.”

Let me let you in on a secret that the learned political establishment doesn’t want you to know.  Let me let you in on the secret of why the educational system emphasizes Math and Science, while History and Sociology suffers.  In making us ignorant of our past, we won’t know when it is that we can rise up against the political engine that is slowly plowing us under.  Germany was suffering, economically and socially.  Germany was suffering from unemployment (early 30’s = > 5 million).  Familiar?  Well, the U.S. has had two (if not more) double-dips, and unemployment, because of the economic situation in the states, is at 9.1% (14 million unemployed).

Germany used the Jews as scapegoats.  If you watched Schindler’s List (1993), you’ll get a cinematic glance into what transpired in that decade of Nazi rule.  Hell, we’ve all read The Diary of Anne Frank, in school.  We’ve all read, heard, watched, recited words of those who stood up against injustice, against tyranny, against the evils of this world.  Now, people who we have entrusted with the protection of the American ideology have corrupted everything that this country has stood for.

HEIL ALABAMA!  SIEG HEIL!!

People in Alabama are being forced to hide in their homes for fear of arrest.  Students are leaving school because, they may be U.S. citizens, their parents are not citizens.  It’s the silence of a people trying to make a better life for their families, NOT THEMSELVES.  They heard the call that most foreign people hear whispered on the soft wind, “freedom”; they felt the tug of liberty’s hand on their shirt-tales, “be free, daughter”.  Now, they feel the cold steel of a corrupt political institution that has forgotten what it was supposed to stand for.

We are not inferior!  We are not ignorant!!  We are not slaves!!!

To the people in Arizona, Texas and Alabama, “DIE FREE RATHER THAN LIVE SLAVES”!

To the political systems in Arizona, Texas and Alabama, YOU HAVE BROKEN THE CONTRACT.  YOUR RULE IS ILLEGITIMATE.

Bored of Facebook

Noticed that it had been a while since I’ve put anything in Bloggerworld.  There hasn’t been much of anything going on with me.  Haven’t found a job; Still looking.  Talk about disappointment.  I can’t believe that I actually believed that I would not have to worry about finding a job because I had trading experience.  This whole situation has handed my ass to me.  I guess I was a worse trader than I thought.  All my connections have dried up.  I’m glad Mary needed someone to help out at her office.  I just don’t think I’m actually any help.

Process Serving isn’t as steady as I thought.  Even then, lawyers are too busy trying to scam you out of your money.  I’ve had a couple of attorney’s pull the same trick.  All I do is smile.  Money is money, I guess.  On principle, I don’t help them the next time they call, but that cuts into my income, AND, attorney’s are really not that smart, even after I give them a new brochure with my prices they still pull the same thing (In one ear and out the other).

I’m tired.  I’m tired of my life.  I can’t even write.  I’ve had this idea flowing through my head but can’t seem to get my ass on a seat long enough to put it down on paper.  Job searching just seems to draw all my energy out.  I really don’t know how I’m going to earn a Nobel for Literature (LoL).  I guess I’ll just trudge on with my face to the Sun.