Happy birfday me!

On my birfday I worried that I may not have enough money to eat healthy or put gas in my car without being able to pay this months bills. Yay me! Happy birfday Jesus!

Epiphany after a music video

I really don't have epephanies very often.  Especially now that I'm worthless to the world around me. But I have to admit that this one scared the shit out of me. It reminded me that some ancient civilizations were not able to survive their own social implosions. Once a civilization steers away from what made it great, delved into self-indulgent atmospheres, were consumed by social deviance; those civilizations imploded and a struggling power vacuum of violence ensued.

What I see happening to this once great beacon of hope from dispair has begun that social de-evolution.  The U.S. is slowly being drawn into that schism of deviance that will consume it, destroy it and leave the people clammering for the hope that will not be there to help them from the rubble and ash.

I'm afraid. "V" tells me I'm a Nihilist. That I simplify things into either good or bad. That I leave out the grey area.  I just tell her that I plan for the worst and hope for the best.  But I don't think I'll mention this thought to her.  She should still have hope even if I believe that this country will consume itself from the inside out.  I beg you, take care of yourselves and your families. Be safe, but be diligent. Be honest, but be weary. Be strong, but be compassionate. Don't conform.